could life be any more confusing?

Ok so one second everthing is good and everyone is good with each other, and then i turn around and its drama drama drama. Life's a beach so have a ball? NO! Life's a bitch, so take that ball and throw it in someone's face and run away! Seriously.

Girls have wayy too much drama going on. We all talk too much. We all gossip too much. We all backstab too much. We all lie too much. Everything. Especially when it comes to guys. It's all COMPETITION. Whoever can ask him out first. Whoever can get him to call back first. Whoever can ask him to the school dance the cutest way. Yeahh that's what i get to deal with now. OHH JOY! All this crap is goin down. My friends are batteling it out on asking this one guy, and no matter who goes with him it's not gonna end. They'll always be mad at each other. My other friend was in tears yesterday cause the guy she wants to ask to turnabout got asked by someone else. 2 of my other friends aren't really talking because of crap that went down.

And then i made a bad mistake this morning of telling one of my guy friends that i would be jealous if he went out with this other girl. And i would! But i just don't like him like that. He's just a friend. HONESTLY! But idk why i would be jealous. And it's only with her. Idk.

I honestly don't know what to do. This has been the worst week ever that i can remember and i'm not even kidding. All my friends have stuff going on. I gained like 5 pounds in the past week and a half and IDK WHY! I'm getting a B in spanish...and i just don't do Bs. Idk i hate seeing them on my report card and stuff. I like As! They're the best and i like to be the best.

Anyways about all this love stuff. Valentine's Day is coming up, yay. Haha i'm babysitting that night anyways so i have my excuse not to go anywhere with anyone :) I really don't want a boyfriend cause there's no one who's really boyfriend material for me. But i still get goosebumps when i listen to all those cute love songs. Especially the Taylor Swift ones. They're so cute and i so totally wish i was that girl in the song, any of her songs. But then again i realize that love comes when you least expect it. So i'm not waiting for anything special at the moment. And if it comes down to it, i can just marry a pair of Manolos instead of a man. Shoes ARE the perfect accessory :) They never cheat or lie and they know how to treat you right! hehe.

so before i get too depressed i'm gonna go. night chikass :]